[ It's not like she didn't think he was serious, but at the same time-- ]
I'm not against it. But.
[ There's a bit more seriousness in the way she takes her time to say it, those uncomfortable truths of her previous existence. The way she went about her life and her interactions with others. There was always an attempt to live in that moment, to see the people she told herself she was driving herself forward for, not only her revenge, but at the same time when she learned ever curve of a woman's body and every sound she could pull from her and every sad secret they need to get off their chest -- only for the next time they meet eyes there's not an inkling of recognition-- it does mess one's concept of boundaries a bit. ]
I've never, other than you, had anyone remember what we've done before when I've... . I'd hate to mess whatever this is up.
[ Not just this growing thing with Loki, her understanding of his love for her, the whole concept of love itself; she genuinely likes Astarion, as ridiculous as the elf was. What if fucking would fuck it all up? ]
[ Now he wishes they were having this conversation in person.
Not because he doesn't believe her, or thinks that the distance created by the crystals is a bad thing, in this particular instance. No, because he wants to hug her after that admission; he can only imagine how rough it would be to see the same faces, sleep with the same souls, and never have them remember. ]
Perhaps we go more slowly, then.
Just a dinner, perhaps, instead? For the three of us? Astarion may be disappointed but I'm sure he'll survive.
[ Ugh. She makes a sound like he's offering her cold boiled spinach. ]
A dinner...in preparation for a threesome, or an orgy, to take it slow. Dinner and then the consideration of group sex.
[ Loki is pretty new at this whole friendship thing too, she knows, but even to her that sounds painfully awkward and almost pointless. Put a dessert bar out and she's going to want to sample. ]
[Everything about this is new. Loving someone is something he's only come to terms with in recent months, and Sylvie has had even less time to do so. His feelings for Astarion are complicated to the point that he hasn't explored their attraction: also new. ]
It's a bit weird for both of us. I can't just fuck off to wherever if and when it gets too messy. But I want you to have a good time. [ A noisy sigh. ] And kissing Astarion is rather fun.
[ She laughs once, shifting where she's sitting at her desk so that the crystal sits on the wood and her head rests on her arms, a stupidly endeared look on her face that she's glad he cant see. ]
Even with all the...you know. Teeth.
[ They dont bother her of course, the exact opposite really, but she has to know. ]
The teeth add a flare of danger, I'll admit. [ And if there's one thing about Loki it's that he's attracted to danger. ]
If he were to insist on actually biting, he could do some real damage. [ A soft snort. ] Thankfully he keeps that business to mere nips, for the most part.
Such, I imagine, is the nature of vampires but he's the first I've befriended.
[ Loki, for his part, is curled up on a couch in the apartments he uses, with a cup of tea, a quill, ink, and a pad of paper. Talking about one of his favorite people with another of his favorite people. It's nice, actually. ]
[ There's heavy amusement in her voice, and then she's quiet for a long moment, thinking. Planning anything with anyone was such a novel concept-- a pleasant and also slightly terrifying concept. But her life before doesn't exist anymore, and if she wants to enjoy the little time she has left on this earth she best get over that hesitation. ]
I think...as long as there is a way out, I'd like to see where it goes. With you...and him. Past that, I don't know. Unless they're wholly unrelated to Riftwatch I suppose.
That way if they're a terrible lay I never have to speak to them again.
I doubt either of us would want you to feel that there isn't a way out. You can always say you'd rather not. No one will try to pigeonhole you into something you don't want to do, I can promise you that.
[ Knowing full well that Sylvie can extricate her from just about any situation that displeases her; still, there's something to be said for avoiding the necessity. ]
I can't say I've had any experiences outside of Riftwatch; Rifters are considered such a unique puzzle that I'm never sure if I would run into someone who has decided I'm a fetish. [ Which, no thank you. ] But that's fair enough.
[ That isn't quite what she meant. But she doesn't know how to phrase it how she means and so she lets it go. The idea of if things didn't work out that it wouldn't be held against her. Issues she's never had to worry about before, or care about before. ]
Nothing wrong with a fetish if it benefits you as well though.
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Except for the part where you begin to feel like an object and not a person in the other's eyes. [ A small noise that's the equivalent of a shrug. ] It's not my favorite feeling, to be honest.
[ Someone has had similar experiences with it. ]
So. What do you think, then? Should we do dinner? Drinks? Or am I being too pushy in my desire to think about things other than ghosts?
[ Bit harder for her to judge that when she's been the one using others to try and keep herself sane instead of as two people on the same footing. But she'll keep that too to herself. ]
Drinks. And then we can go from there that night. Eventually? You never know, you may get your Rifter orgy yet.
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Date: 2022-01-28 10:07 pm (UTC)I'm not against it. But.
[ There's a bit more seriousness in the way she takes her time to say it, those uncomfortable truths of her previous existence. The way she went about her life and her interactions with others. There was always an attempt to live in that moment, to see the people she told herself she was driving herself forward for, not only her revenge, but at the same time when she learned ever curve of a woman's body and every sound she could pull from her and every sad secret they need to get off their chest -- only for the next time they meet eyes there's not an inkling of recognition-- it does mess one's concept of boundaries a bit. ]
I've never, other than you, had anyone remember what we've done before when I've... . I'd hate to mess whatever this is up.
[ Not just this growing thing with Loki, her understanding of his love for her, the whole concept of love itself; she genuinely likes Astarion, as ridiculous as the elf was. What if fucking would fuck it all up? ]
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Date: 2022-01-28 11:29 pm (UTC)Not because he doesn't believe her, or thinks that the distance created by the crystals is a bad thing, in this particular instance. No, because he wants to hug her after that admission; he can only imagine how rough it would be to see the same faces, sleep with the same souls, and never have them remember. ]
Perhaps we go more slowly, then.
Just a dinner, perhaps, instead? For the three of us? Astarion may be disappointed but I'm sure he'll survive.
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Date: 2022-01-30 12:20 am (UTC)A dinner...in preparation for a threesome, or an orgy, to take it slow. Dinner and then the consideration of group sex.
[ Loki is pretty new at this whole friendship thing too, she knows, but even to her that sounds painfully awkward and almost pointless. Put a dessert bar out and she's going to want to sample. ]
I'm just saying it's a bit weird for me is all.
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Date: 2022-01-30 12:27 am (UTC)[ Everything about this is new. Loving someone is something he's only come to terms with in recent months, and Sylvie has had even less time to do so. His feelings for Astarion are complicated to the point that he hasn't explored their attraction: also new. ]
It's a bit weird for both of us. I can't just fuck off to wherever if and when it gets too messy. But I want you to have a good time. [ A noisy sigh. ] And kissing Astarion is rather fun.
What do you think would be better?
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Date: 2022-01-30 12:34 am (UTC)Even with all the...you know. Teeth.
[ They dont bother her of course, the exact opposite really, but she has to know. ]
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Date: 2022-01-30 12:39 am (UTC)If he were to insist on actually biting, he could do some real damage. [ A soft snort. ] Thankfully he keeps that business to mere nips, for the most part.
Such, I imagine, is the nature of vampires but he's the first I've befriended.
[ Loki, for his part, is curled up on a couch in the apartments he uses, with a cup of tea, a quill, ink, and a pad of paper. Talking about one of his favorite people with another of his favorite people. It's nice, actually. ]
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Date: 2022-01-30 12:54 am (UTC)[ There's heavy amusement in her voice, and then she's quiet for a long moment, thinking. Planning anything with anyone was such a novel concept-- a pleasant and also slightly terrifying concept. But her life before doesn't exist anymore, and if she wants to enjoy the little time she has left on this earth she best get over that hesitation. ]
I think...as long as there is a way out, I'd like to see where it goes. With you...and him. Past that, I don't know. Unless they're wholly unrelated to Riftwatch I suppose.
That way if they're a terrible lay I never have to speak to them again.
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Date: 2022-01-30 01:43 am (UTC)[ Knowing full well that Sylvie can extricate her from just about any situation that displeases her; still, there's something to be said for avoiding the necessity. ]
I can't say I've had any experiences outside of Riftwatch; Rifters are considered such a unique puzzle that I'm never sure if I would run into someone who has decided I'm a fetish. [ Which, no thank you. ] But that's fair enough.
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Date: 2022-01-30 01:58 am (UTC)[ That isn't quite what she meant. But she doesn't know how to phrase it how she means and so she lets it go. The idea of if things didn't work out that it wouldn't be held against her. Issues she's never had to worry about before, or care about before. ]
Nothing wrong with a fetish if it benefits you as well though.
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Date: 2022-01-30 02:08 am (UTC)[ Someone has had similar experiences with it. ]
So. What do you think, then? Should we do dinner? Drinks? Or am I being too pushy in my desire to think about things other than ghosts?
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Date: 2022-01-30 02:14 am (UTC)[ Bit harder for her to judge that when she's been the one using others to try and keep herself sane instead of as two people on the same footing. But she'll keep that too to herself. ]
Drinks. And then we can go from there that night. Eventually? You never know, you may get your Rifter orgy yet.
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Date: 2022-01-30 02:16 am (UTC)Alright. Drinks, then. [ A chuckle. ] Here? Or should we pick a different setting?
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Date: 2022-01-30 02:29 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2022-01-30 02:53 am (UTC)