[ Comes out before he can even think better of it. Because above all else he does hope they are friends, even if his heart and body want more than that from her. ]
I hope that's not all we are, [ he admits, and there's some hesitance in his voice. ] If we're being honest.
[ She hopes so too, hopes they're friends. Hopes he can forgive her. But this Loki hadn't traveled the rift, hadn't battled Alioth, hadn't promised her that he wouldn't betray her and yet did. She hadn't betrayed him in turn by sending him away. It would eat at her, heart and soul to let this go anywhere with someone who still looks at her with fondness, still holds her in such a regard as he did. Who she's still lying to by obmission.
He doesn't deserve this. She doesn't deserve it. For different reasons.
[ There's a noise on the other end; Loki taking a breath and it gets caught, somewhere in the middle, before he lets it out and tries again. ]
Alright.
[ Did he say the wrong thing? Or is it more complicated than that? He hates not knowing, even on a good day, even when he isn't certain the other parties involved aren't keeping things from him, but he won't push for that information.
He knows that pushing will just move her further from him, either way. But he can't help how much it feels like rejection. ]
[ He'd moved to put the crystal away on a bedside table, but when she speaks his name...
It's obvious, he imagines, just how much he loves her. He feels as if he's been broadcasting it since her arrival and isn't sure how he feels about that in particular. If it looks as obvious as it feels to him, someone else is going to pick up on it sooner than later. ]
[ It may be overwhelmingly obvious to anyone who has had even an inkling of an even passingly consistent relationship, but all of this is so foreign to her that she knows there’s something there, knows she feels something strong for him, knows that It’s more than just simply platonic. But love? That word really doesn’t belong to or apply to her does it?
This though? She can’t just leave it like this. ]
You are my friend. [ She replies finally, a bit rushed, prodded by his reminder that he’s waiting. ] My… only… friend.
[I won't be your only friend for long he wants to promise, because he's sure that will be true. She'll hit her stride, she'll find people who are drawn to her in the same ways he is. His friends will be nosy. She'll make her own.
He doesn't say it.
He says, instead: ] You don't have to thank me for that.
[ She doesn’t believe that, honestly. If he ever finds out, if she ever gets up the nerve to tell him, he’ll want nothing to do with her. She’s certain of it.
But for now she just smiles a little sadly to herself and tucks the crystal away. ]
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Date: 2021-12-23 01:08 am (UTC)Is that what we are? Friends?
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Date: 2021-12-23 01:11 am (UTC)[ Comes out before he can even think better of it. Because above all else he does hope they are friends, even if his heart and body want more than that from her. ]
I hope that's not all we are, [ he admits, and there's some hesitance in his voice. ] If we're being honest.
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Date: 2021-12-23 01:54 am (UTC)He doesn't deserve this. She doesn't deserve it. For different reasons.
Sylvie swallows hard, her voice very quiet. ]
I'll talk to you later Loki.
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Date: 2021-12-23 02:00 am (UTC)Alright.
[ Did he say the wrong thing? Or is it more complicated than that? He hates not knowing, even on a good day, even when he isn't certain the other parties involved aren't keeping things from him, but he won't push for that information.
He knows that pushing will just move her further from him, either way. But he can't help how much it feels like rejection. ]
We'll talk later.
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Date: 2021-12-23 02:11 am (UTC)Of course.
[ She almost leaves it out there, but then winces, taking in half a breath- ]
Loki?
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Date: 2021-12-23 08:00 pm (UTC)[ He'd moved to put the crystal away on a bedside table, but when she speaks his name...
It's obvious, he imagines, just how much he loves her. He feels as if he's been broadcasting it since her arrival and isn't sure how he feels about that in particular. If it looks as obvious as it feels to him, someone else is going to pick up on it sooner than later. ]
I'm here.
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Date: 2021-12-24 02:50 am (UTC)This though? She can’t just leave it like this. ]
You are my friend. [ She replies finally, a bit rushed, prodded by his reminder that he’s waiting. ] My… only… friend.
Thank you… for that.
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Date: 2021-12-24 04:57 am (UTC)He doesn't say it.
He says, instead: ] You don't have to thank me for that.
No matter what, I'll always be your friend.
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Date: 2021-12-24 10:58 am (UTC)But for now she just smiles a little sadly to herself and tucks the crystal away. ]